The Past Two Weeks

The past two weeks have been a whirlwind. Two weeks ago I wrote about being overcome with anxiety and worry, we struggled. Two weeks ago, Joel and I sent texts like this.

But on Monday, June 1st we got THE call. My hcg levels were 2,034 which is great. I was officially four and a half weeks pregnant. Monday was a fun day! It was so surreal and I can't explain it better than being so fun.

Throughout the week, I had waves of joy and waves of anxiety knowing we would have an ultrasound in a few weeks. On Saturday, June 6th, I had heavy bleeding for 3 hours. I was devastated. I thought there was no possible way I could bleed that much and things still be okay. I was in a depressed fog Saturday evening, stunned and quiet (which Joel would say is very abnormal). I did call the on-call doctor. He said it could be totally normal and they would get me in on Monday. So we waited and waited.

I had a blood test on Monday (too early for an ultrasound) and my hcg level is now 31,000. When I answered the afternoon phone call a week after our joyous call, the same nurse I spoke with in the morning started with, "Everything's perfect." Relief. Just pure relief.

Today we are 6 weeks pregnant. We have an ultrasound in 2 weeks. I am praying for peace and calm. I am praying for our baby (or babies). I am praying for no more scares between now and then.

We're excited!