Sunday, April 23, 2017

Hoda Momma: What I Would Have Said Had I Known You Were Adopting

"You asked about my husband and me, our family and what we were doing in town from Iowa.

I told you a condensed version of our family's story -- how we survived years of heartache with infertility, grieved the loss of having biological children, felt a nudge to pursue adoption, adopted a beautiful daughter, adopted another beautiful daughter, then got pregnant and gave birth to a daughter... all within three years. 

Your smile radiated after hearing how we found happiness in the way our family was built.

But what I didn't know -- and couldn't have known then -- was that you were on a similar journey. That you, too, had experienced the inkling to pursue adoption and the unflinching desire to be a momma..."





Listen Up: Grieving Infertility While Others are Pregnant

"I hated who I had become: the person people didn’t want to tell they were pregnant..."



National Infertility Awareness Week

I have so many reactions to this being a thing.

I think it is important to build awareness of how many people around us are hurting, yearning, waiting or grieving that it may not happen. But it also breaks my heart that there are so many struggling to become a parent.

I think this builds awareness for couples trying to conceive. But it does not acknowledge that there are so many more people hurting- people who don't have the means, the life situation, etc. to even being thinking about their hopes and dreams of becoming a parent could come true.

I think when we hear infertility we think of people who have just not been able to get pregnant. But there are so many who have suffered the excitement of pregnancy news and then had it torn away from them.

I haven't blogged in a long time. I never intended on a blog that would continue telling my story. I didn't want to blog to share about my joy and happiness. I wanted to create a blog that shared my raw, honest thoughts when I couldn't see how my dream of becoming a parent would come true. I also didn't want to tell a story that ended perfectly with everything working out. Because that isn't how stories always end.

To those who are still waiting, I am here. I offer my support in whatever capacity you need. If it's distance because it's not helpful to be around someone who had success when you have not, I can give you that. If you have questions or need camaraderie as you gear up for an IVF shot, I can give you that. If it is someone you can vent to in confidence with no judgment whatsoever, I can give you that. And of course, I would love to pray with you and for you. You are not alone.

To those who are grieving, I am so deeply sorry. I can listen to you, sit with you, cry with you, and be there for you. I would love to pray with you and for you. You are not alone.